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Summary: Everyone knew him. His name was Billy Martin and he was my grandfather. And I have been told the most amazing story about him.
People sometimes tell you the past should die. But you wouldnt say that if you knew the story i was told regarding the story of my grandfather and his life. My dad was just ten wjen my grandfather decided he'd had enogh of music and quit the band that made him famous. Grandpa knew the responsibilty he had as a married man and father and thought it was the best thing he could do for his family. He just didn't know he'd refret it so much. My father told me that my grandfather often contemplated returning to the band but never did. Once or twice a year, Good Charlotte would play a reunion concert and my grandfather would play for many hours for adoring original fans. After two years without Billy by their side, the rest of the band parted ways. The year was 2012.
Sun, Jul. 13th, 2008, 06:23 pm
Harlow
I am not sure if any have posted these, but I thought they were cute. 
Sat, Jun. 28th, 2008, 03:14 pm
A ah.. summer. what a wonderful time of year, sort of, expcept for the heat. I am so glad that school is over with for now and happy because my cousins are coming over today for a week and am really excited. Oh, I have OCD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and not too happy about it but yeah I think i have it. Anyways, gotta clean and i am really tired so i will check back later, finshed An Unthinkable Bond and it has been posted under GCFanfics.com so make sure you check it out and review for me. Always, Cila
I have signed up for the GC page..yeah.. and basically that is where I will be posting most of the time, with my fellow Good Charlotte lovers...
We bought a house..yah... and are moving in today..well actually escrow closes 2day but alot of friends are coming to help get the house ready so we won't move in until another 2 or 3 weeks.
I have decided that a friend and I are going to spend 2 weeks in Ensenada for the heck of it in July. It will be exciting 4 me.
Ok I have decided to add what makes me and Karissa differ..
She likes These Guys:
And Him....
And Last but no least.....
Him...
Ok I like......
And of course...
And..
That is where we differ.
Okay so this is what is up! I recently found out that the guy doesn't like me anymore if he even did and he "wants nothing to do with me". I guess I should have expected it but i was really happy when i head. I can't explain why but i think it was because i was free of having to worry about him and now i don't really think or miss him. The fact that he's still having sex with his wife altohugh he claims to not love her just shows how desperate the man is and i dont want that type of man in my life. im sorr but him and his whore need to like be on planet mars or something cause i am pissed off as hell to be falling for a guy who cant make up his mind. So besides the fact that i have met someone and really like him this traitor guy is the last thing on my mind. I wont lie, those two months that we spent together mean the world to me and i will forget them and regret the times we shared but, my god the man is depserate. So here is something to Abel and his Whore i mean wife from Muah! I want you to know that I'm happy for you I wish nothing but the best for you both An older version of me Is she perverted like me Would she go down on yor in a theater Does she speak eloquently And does she have your baby I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother 'Cause the love that you gave that we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died? But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You oughta know You seem very well, things look peaceful I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced Are you thinking of me when you fuck her ? 'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me And I'm not gonna fade As soon as you close your eyes and you know it And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel it...well can you feel it ? And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You oughta know. Quote of the Day: "I can be happy with very little, however I choose not to be." **Speaking of the Devil.....  Yeah he's the one in blue and his slutty wife and kid are next to him along with the granny and a friend of MY family. 2 years ago.....
Ah, what are men compared to rocks and mountains?? So another glorious and busy day today. I have finally did some GC research on LJ and found many intersting groups. I have yet to spawn my creative mind on 'em but await for my time to come, cuz once i start i won't end. So as you know i was mad yesterday and i apologize. i am happy and sad at the news that my source gave me. Quote of the Day according to Maxine: "NEVER GO TO BED ANGRY! STAY UP AND PLOT REVENGE!"
www.maxine.com For all your daily quotes such as this... Cila...
Well hello everyone! It is a nice cloudy day in my town today and I am leaving tomorrow for Ensenada Mexico. I have decided to post some pix of my srecond home and my friends and "family" who occupy that beautiful ciudad. So I have been actually happy these past couple days and have actually got back to writing. Stressing out on my homework but I will get it done by tonight. It's just math and history but nbd, it will be done. I alas, have managed to somewhat get my guy out of my mind for the majority, and despite being rassled by many insisting i wait til im in my mid-twenties to marry hasnt really slowed anything down for me. Instead it makes me more determined. I know that i won't marry until im like 40, but oh well. My sister is bugging the heck out of me right now cryng and bugging! Arrrgh! Just go away !!!!! Anyways, I am trying my best to get some people to start actually looking at my LJ so i've being doing crap to it! Ha! Pix Time:  Me and Karissa outside of Sada *ensenada* in December.  The beautiful Ensenada coast! The whole drive there is sheer beauty, the whole Pacific ocean!  Ahahahahaha! There she is Mrs. Chris Brown (not really just in her dreams)  Dancing our hearts away, however i hid for this picture!  The Bufadora, aka blowhole, shooting water from a cave in the ocean! Alot nicer in person, after we shot this pic, the water went up again and dumped us in salt water...but it was sooo fun!   Tje view from our house, the ugly white thing is no longer there....  My mother and Rogelio.... nice guy but no personality!  My cuzin Joseph and Roy..(rogelio) and lastly....  Not very flattering.. i look like such a nerd but ... mother told me to do this! ------->>>>>  O boy that cracks me up... she was like" make a funny face" so i did. It was so funny.. that was a nerdy me two years ago back when i was happy. Well see u guys later... Quote of the Day: "Im Never Forgiving This Broken Heart of Mine". Cila.
Hey guys! I am feeling so much better since that last entry and haven't been AS depressed but i guess only time will heal itself. I hav meeting tonight and i haven't prepared for it but i really don't mind. Im tired and i need a nap. I have decided that i need to stop worrying about things and if me and this guy are meant to be, we will be. I have already started checking out possible candidates and although they don't compare to him they are just as good. I think though that i am not going to rush anything since i am still young! I am so excited because i have some plans with friends for next week and we are going to hang out all day and eat grub and watch movies and it is going to be awesome. Yay! i am so siked! So i am going to post some more pictures that i took a while ago. And that guy who i gave my heart too last June might, MIGHT show up. i am really considering putting him up here. Enjoy the pics ya'll!  We went to Mexico two yers back and there is a natural waterfall park there and so we went. Note: These waterfalls are NOT man made!  Yet, another beautiful waterfall.  BEAUTIFUL!  i WAS SO SIKED TO BE THERE AND SEE THESE BEAUTIES!  That waterfall was huge! You will not believe how beautiful it was the be here and i really want to go back! Water was everywhere and i thoroughly enjoyed myself there! Nice!  This was too good to pass up and I thought it was hilarious. And disgusting. This is something us women should all do to our men! Haha, im just playing but it was really weird... and gross!  That's my cousin Joseph! At Wild Animal Park two years ago in San Diego California! Alright i am tired of posting picutres so until next time guys! I need a nap! xxCilaxx Quote of the day: I Wanna Hold Your Hand, But Will You Hold Mine?
I have had a very tough week this week. I feel like everything in my life is hopeless and I want to talk to the rents' about it but don't know how the will act when they hear that i am the most sad, depressed pathetic person in my life. I think i have cried myself to sleep every single one of these nights and don't talk to my firends, only select few, and i just dont know. All because of a boy can you believe that? I hate the fact that i miss him and wish that there was some wor that could get to me regarding his feelings for me. If i only knew if he was over me then I would be over it faster but jnowing that there is no way of me knowing if he misses me too kills me inside and i am just to darn tired of holding on to what might be a false hope. I can't stand being apart from him and I can't face this world thats keeping us apart. What can I do? I feel rapped in my body and now that we are moving and I have to leave behind my memories of him in this cold dark house, i feel hopeless. If only he knew. On the positive side i have been making friends and i guess that's exciting, but it doesn't fill the void i feel.I don't want to sit and wait for him to come roubd because he probably never will. So what can i do? It's not easy giving up hope. I am going to ensenada once again and i sort of dread it because things there remind me of him too and i can't help being reminded of him wherever i go. I yearn to hear his voice again, although i suppose i never will hear it again. I wrote a poem for him, about him and hung it on the wall of my room. So that i can read it everyday and recognize that i am madly, seriouisly head over heels in love with the guy, this man who makes me smile, and makes me laugh and makes me feel a thousand emotions at one time and fill every need in my bones. He makes my world go round, and he is everything that could ever be to me and i feel so empty with him gone, i haven't ever felt sodown in my life. I guess the man will never know. Will never know. If only he could thoguh, i would be so happy if he just knew how i felt. But it's not like he's going to be reading LJ anytime soon and i wont be speaking to him until im like 45 years old. 30 more years or so to go. In other news i have posted more pictures inclusing the man himself, well maybe.  Me and my friend ( well annoying kid) Jr about a year ago. The cutest boy in the world!   Jennifer and Leslie acting silly! dated 2 years ago when i wasn't in drama!  Karissa, Andrea and me! Riss is gonna hate me for putting up her pic! Oh well... That's all for now because i have to use the girl's room. Quote of the Day: Feel sorry for the things you did, and never did. Think about that and see yow that affects your life! Signed, Cila.
Life sucks and i am utterly disappointed in the way my life is going. What can i do but sit back and watch it go by? I am not very interested in anything right now so let the picutres do some talking for once.  i took this one while flying over New Jersey.  I aspire to be a photgrapher, who knows i just might work with Good Charlotte. I need a vacation! 
So here I am trying to decide ways I can change my LJ page and came up with the desicion that I would post some picutres from my trip to New York.   Okay that is enough because I don't seem to want to post more. Billy Obviously, a beautiful, beautiful man. I have no news to post as much as I wish I did. I have been kind of sad lately because of some emotional issues about me and this guy. It sux being a teenager! I hope everone is well and thanks for reading! Qoute of the Day: Say what you mean or suffer it not being said."
Alright so the news that Heath Ledger surprised me beyond belief. It is just heard to believe that someone could die, and knowing you'll never see them again and no heart beat, no pulse, no breath. I just am amazed at how death works. So anyway we are at isk of losing our house so lately we have been looking and calling for a new place, either to buy or rent and so far we have results. Not favorable, but results. Since the market is so bad we have a good chance of buying a house really cheap. So that's a good thing. So as you know Joel has a girl now. And in a way that bums me out because if things dont work betweeen him and Nicole, he will always be tied to her y'know? I dont know if that's a good way of thinking or just me?! Things are doing good over where I am and that's good. I haven't called Tiffany AKA SpongyNoodles because of the busyness I have been doing (new word) So I betterget on that soon. I feel really bad, like if i were neglecting her or something and we have been best friends since 4th grade so since we were like 8,9,10? So you think we would still talk! But honestly it has been months and i feel guilty for not calling! But now that she is in public school it gets really hard for me to call, so i guess that's what held me back. I dont know if thats an excuse or not, but oh well. So it is raining over here and I miss the rain and i dont want it to end soon.I like dark cloudy days because at times, they remind me, of me. So I hope all is well with you lovely people, not like anyone is reading this because they never do. But at least for me, it suits me to the degree i please. I have posted new stories on GCFanFics.com so you should read them because that makes me happy. If you don't know my screenname, you ask me...duh!Anyways, until next time. Quote of the Day: "We cannot become what we need to be by remaining what we are." Signed, Cila
 Aww yes the band of good charlotte manages to capture my eye once again. Now i am very busy and dont have time to say much. enjoy your week ya'll and know i love you! XcilaX
I am sick today and so is everyone else in my house but oh well. I want to go to the movies right now but I am too lazy to get dolled up. Me and my friend Karisaa should hang out today, I should call her. I dont feel like cleaning and i am tired of psting on here and no one reading. I dont like miley cyrus because i think her fame is getting to her head, i dont know why i brought her up though. I finally decided that i want to go to a college, but i dont know what to major in. Some things can be a hard decision. I dont have much to say but this because my mind is sort of empty, currently. I am probably just too tired. Untile another time, Cila Quote of the Day: It's A Push And Shove World
Okay so the past few weeks have been hectic for me and Im stressed out. I have been getting nagged by school, ugh, and suddenly i realized that i have done no work. January starts the school year renewed for me, whoopee, and i am just plain lazy to do anything about it. I hate flying in airplanes and i have to go to guanajuato in Jan. to visit an aunt and i am not excited about that the least bit. What can ya say though right? Rather than face shame and humiliation i suppose i will go for the ride. What is so exciting about mexico anyway? I love it really but guanajuato is not the best place to go and it is so far from everything. I soppose i shall keep an open eye on that as grandma says "broadening my horizons". Seems exciting right? So anyways I watched some of my fav. GC videos and am excitedly awaiting their new CD, due in two years. Err.... oh well what can ya do? Toodles, Cila Quote of the Day: Keep your heart and mind focused ahead and you wont have to worry about your feet.
Must i say anything more? What things make you think twice? Do you ever feel a burden on your shoulder? Does your conscience tell you whats right and whats wrong? Can you live happily? Is there such thing as true love? Leave me a comment and let me know what you think because the world is passing away and my soul is endangered. Feelings come and go but whats the point? We are all going down the same road. xCilax
Okay, so as you can tell I am changing my site because I have got tired of the dilemma that it was plain. So instead of my boring posts and brags about stories I have added on Gcfanfics.com which I have thank you very much. Good info will be posted on here. Things that YOU might actually want to read about. Now I hope you do enjoy the things I write because I take time out of my schedule to post them. I have to take advantage of LJ since it is Tiffany aka spongy noodles who has opened this site for me. Although I havent talked to her in quite some time I am hoping she will at least read it. To begin, I have been behind on my homework and still having trouble finding a job but no worries. I know i will find one and i am not in a rush. I am going to New York again and in March I will be going back to New Mexico for 3 weeks to a month. I am not sure though. I have started gaining weight again and hating it but cant take time to excercise, that and i am lazy. Good Charlotte is getting outdated for me and I wish that they could do something interesting to catch my eye again. My new favortie artist is Chris Brown and R&B is the music I have been listening to. If SOMEONE would post a comment telling me how boring this post is or whatever, my gratitude is given you. So let's be nice and get along. I am leaving Wednesday for a trip so wont be updating but its not like you care. Signed, Me Quote of the Day: "If you judge people you have no time to love them."
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